Posted 9:04 PM by Ben
It's been a while since I've written; sorry about that. I've been pretty low lately, although there are good moments. No job yet. A few weeks till school starts.

I know someone will call me but it is so disappointing getting home from work and having no messages on my voicemail. At least I'm at work all day instead of waiting for the phone to ring.

Wonder of wonders, work has been my favorite place lately. It gets me out of the apartment. When I come home I don't do anything. I'm sure there are things to do but I'm never in the mood.

At work I get to run around, eat good food, and listen to classic rock radio. I never used to understand people who escape to their jobs, but it kind of makes sense now. Maybe sometimes that's the most worthwhile part of your existence.

I've been a downer lately and it really bothers me. I don't want to inflict my problems on the people around me. But it's all I've been able to talk about, and I'm not sure how to stop.

I never want to be Mr. Gloom and Doom. If I complain (and I do, plenty), I like it to be in a humorous way that shows I understand that life is not that bad. If I recognize the crappy parts of my life, I want to be equally aware of the great things.

Lately, that's slipped away. Mostly because of a stupid job that's just not happening. I hate that it's gotten the best of me so quickly.

Sigh. I hope life is good for everyone. It's good for me too.....I've just hard a hard time realizing it.